Monday, December 28, 2009

Age of Aquarius


welcome to the age of,
age of aquarius

where everything is,
brand new

welcome to the age of,
age of aquarius

where everything is,
high tech

- inevitable -

Sunday, December 27, 2009

My Dream Last Night...

I just woke up and had to write this blog about a dream I had last night.

So here goes, a glimpse into my subconscious mind...

In my dream I was invited to be a judge on a panel at my old highschool. It was for an acting competition.

I remember that two of my friends from highschool were competing. They were still the ages that they were in highschool. One of them was my friend Michael and the other Paul. They were eligible to compete because they had enrolled in an acting class provided by the school. It was their turn to present their acting project.

They had some kind of a record player and they were reading/acting from a script. I don't remember the exact details, but their presentation was almost exactly like all of the other presentations that the other judges and I had seen.

When it was my turn to critique their project I told them that I was a little bit disappointed. I knew how passionate about acting these guys were and I expected more out of them.

First, I told them it that looked like they were just following a standard model and doing what everyone else was doing. Instead of being creative and original. They offered numerous excuses as to why their project wasn't a show stopper. I reminded them that acting is about being creative and original, inspiring and entertaining. Their project was none of the above!

One of the two guys replied, this is just a stupid school contest and it doesn't matter if we win it.

In my dream I could feel myself focusing and going into a sort of tunnel vision. Then I said, hey man, you do realize that there are teachers and other faculty in the audience right now... right?

If you inspired the audience and showed them how intensely passionate about acting you are... a few of them would get behind you. Notice I said "a few". Then I said, getting teachers to help you move forward in your career, reminds of me something that you'll need in the future, if you continue to act. A MANAGER or AGENT.

I reminded them that if they're not able to convince a group of teachers, who are willing and maybe even eager to help them, they surely will not be able to score a manager in the harsh realities of the entertainment business. Especially in New York or Los Angeles. I told them that this competition is a perfect opportunity for them to begin to water the seeds of their acting careers.

I then reminded them of the time when they were signing up for the acting class, months ago. I said, I bet when you were going through the available classes, deciding which ones you wanted to take... I bet you chose acting because it would be fun and more bearable than the boring math and science classes. They nodded their heads. Then I said to one of the boys, I know how you are about acting, you talk about it all the time. But here you are, choosing not to step into the spotlight on stage and show these people how bad you want it... how great you are.

Their faces were a bit red.

I then said, thats not how a mother fucking champion acts bitch. lol... idk why I said that.

Then I looked away from the two guys and looked around the audience. After looking around for a second, I realized that the auditorium was full of children. My face turned red and I immediately apologized to one of the teachers near me.

She leaned forward and whispered, "thats alright, they all needed to hear that."

- Then I woke up and told my girlfriend my dream. Then I came to the computer and wrote it for you.

Wlecmoe to the Wrlod of RJ

Saturday, December 5, 2009

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Thursday, December 3, 2009


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Monday, November 30, 2009

New Music Already Here

I'm crazy about this software.


It's MIDI capable, has a built in microphone with compressor and gate capabilities. Some dope sounds too. But the sounds can be manipulated and stacked.


for the first time in my life, I'm able to roll out of bed and record one of the billion ideas that are floating around in my head.

I recorded three songs yesterday before dinner time. Pretty ferociously creative day. On the tail end of business problems.

My friend Bill Vincent told me, "new and innovative ideas are floating around in the universe all the time, its just a matter of keep your eyes open and then pulling them out of the sky before someone else does... and trust me, if you don't, someone will."

If you know me, then you know that I got a boner over this program.

Sunday, November 1, 2009



I am so sorry that I haven’t written in such a long time. As with every relationship, they need to be nurtured and cared for. Once one person stops giving, the relationship becomes one sided. Since I introduced myself to you first, I think my role in our relationship is to continually break the ice and bring back the spark of familiarity that created our interest in each other.


I’m listening to the rain touch the windows while I sip hot chamomile tea and honey.

My heart is racing.

It’s a good thing that my elementary school teachers forced to me learn how to type with the “home row”. Now, my fingers can almost keep up with the pounding pace of my thoughts. Life lessons standing at the doors of my mind.

I’m scared…

“Jason, we’ve been waiting for you to let us in for a long time. Take the loosely fit chain off of your neck so you can walk to the peep hole of the door. You must take off the chain in order to see what’s out here.”

Hiding in plain sight, in this safe place…

In 2004, Kevin says, “Rusty, you are literally a major record labels dream. You’ve got the talent to do it. But you’re a real good dude. Because of that, I think that you’re gonna climb all the way to the top and see how fucked up the music industry is and quit.”

Now I understand what Kevin meant.

2005, Alex walks into the studio and says, “I think you need to sing that track with more feeling, more tenacity, better delivery. You gotta let the listeners know that you are feeling what you’re saying. When you do that, they all will feel lit. After all, you wrote it.”

I needed to show my strength and passion.

Around 2006, Marla says, “Tell me about your family.” “Well, my mother is an angel with golden wings and if there ever was a person who was going to heaven, she one.” “Okay, I’ll help you with your music career.”

But still, keep love in my heart.

2007, Kris says on the phone, “I’m joining the military, the lease expires in about two weeks, so you should look for a new place to live.”

Don’t let others selfishly drain you.

In 2008, I said to Anthony, “See that drawing on your wall?!?! See that right there?! The guy who drew that was a great man! We can be great men too. We don’t have to live our lives a certain way just because people say we have to. We HAVE to do what makes us happy and makes us feel fulfilled!!! There’s no reason why, with hard work and sacrifice, we can’t be as great as the dude who drew that picture thousands of years ago. I mean, damn yo!”

Even when you’re exhausted, give the best parts of yourself to others.

2009, Hollywood Manager/Agent says, “Rusty J, you’ve got all the pieces of the puzzle to be a megastar. But how bad do you want it? What are you will to do to make the big deals happen?” “Well it depends on how hot she is. haha!” “What if it’s not a she? What if it’s a he wanting to watch you with a she?”

Even if some says it is right, never do what your heart knows is wrong.

Fall 2009, rapper on the radio says, “I made it all happen without a record deal.”

Don’t be afraid.

In closing I would like to publicly acknowledge the heroes/angels who have saved me during low points in my life, never changed teams and always chose love, even when it meant facing their fears and ignoring their egos.

Thank you Heroes, and as my Mom has always said to me, “I love you to sky.”

R. Jason

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Mobile Home Marauders

They call it a mobile home

They used to have license plates,

Now I'm calling it home...

As of late?

I went from big studios

To TN, NY, TN, LA, Redondo, Long Beach and down under,

How did this all happen

As I lay and

Monday, October 19, 2009

Angie's House

Here I am...
at Angie's house...

Sunday, August 30, 2009


I don't know where home is anymore

Friday, August 21, 2009

Home, Home on the Range

Home on the range

Where the deer and the antelope play
Where seldom is heard a discouraging word
And the skies are not cloudy all day

How often at night
When the heavens are bright

With the light from the glittering stars
Have I stood there amazed and asked as I gazed
If their glory exceeds that of ours...

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Lived with the Bears

Living in a cave

With other bears,

Can give you quite a scare!

Especially when

You've never been,


But I've been a bear.

I lived in the cave.

I made it my home

and made it my grave.

So what have I learned?

I learned to be tough

I learned to get going

When the goin' gets rough.

I learned to man-up

Was taught to be strong

and I learned to change things

When things feel wrong.

I Am a Bear

Friday, August 14, 2009

My Heart is Racing

My heart is racing so fast,

I can barely take it

My soul is rising so high ,

I think that I can make it

My life is changing so quick,

Some think that I fake it




Wednesday, August 12, 2009

ay yo,... ay yo.... ay yo

This month has been insane!

Changes all over the place.

for real!

I'm talkin' bout:





Life Lessons





big, small, rich, poor, smart, not so smart

"Hold On to Your Hats"

song title copyright 2009



Sunday, August 9, 2009










Thursday, August 6, 2009

Yes Universe... I hear you

I put my ear to a shell

I could hear it well

The ocean was singing

The big bell was ringing...

The u-ni-verse

Not use-less-words

Spoke from that shell

I could hear them well

Valley Village - I'm Tryin'

I'm tryin' not to be sad
I'm workin' real hard
On Being Strong

Pictures of the fellas
#15 and #16
I'm tryin' to be Strong

Ant James Jay Rich 'n' B...
and Where's Ev?
He's over seas

Throw the your C.P's up!
Jim and Ice in the cup
Spicy Pasta Next Door!
Move away?! What for?!?!?!

Goodluck to Rusty J
We'll Miss You
Until you come back

Now I'm sittin' on the futon
I slept on
About 10 times

I'm lookin' at my clothing
Gettin' sentimental
Water in the eyes

I remember goin' to the store
Shoppin' for fabric 'n' more
Watching Tony build the booth
Meditating, Seekin' the truth

I made choices that changed my life
Slept in my car on the street over night

Felt my soul
Soar among others
Moved in with friends
Soon called them brothers

If any of them are reading
Know that I'm paying the ultimate price
Leaving true friendship and new love behind me
Now California will always remind me




Human Nature - Societal Beings

Human Nature

Looking Out
Across The Night-Time
The City Winks A Sleepless Eye
Hear Her Voice
Shake My Window
Sweet Seducing Sighs

Get Me Out
Into The Night-Time
Four Walls Won't Hold Me Tonight
If This Town
Is Just An Apple
Then Let Me Take A Bite

If They Say -
Why, Why, Tell Em That Is Human Nature
Why, Why, Does He Do Me That Way
If They Say -
Why, Why, Tell Em That Is Human Nature
Why, Why, Does He Do Me That Way

Reaching Out
To Touch A Stranger
Electric Eyes Are Everywhere
See That Girl
She Knows I'm Watching
She Likes The Way I Stare

If They Say -
Why, Why, Tell Em That Is Human Nature
Why, Why, Does He Do Me That Way
If They Say -
Why, Why, Tell Em That Is Human Nature
Why, Why, Does He Do Me That Way
I Like Livin This Way
I Like Lovin This Way

Looking Out
Across The Morning
The City's Heart Begins To Beat
Reaching Out
I Touch Her Shoulder
I'm Dreaming Of The Street

If They Say -
Why, Why, Tell Em That Is Human Nature
Why, Why, Does He Do Me That Way
If They Say -
Why, Why, Tell Em That Is Human Nature
Why, Why, Does He Do Me That Way
I Like Livin This Way

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Travelling Towards the Light

Look at the tracks
Steely cold and brash

Natural beauty on both s
ides, ty-lee

a Lil' bit uh candy foe yo eyes
Look closely
and you'll see
two people

Approaching illumination,
exiting evil
I hope the clouds don't move
when they get there

Cause then they'll be forced to change their paradigm
State of mind

They've traveled a long way
Disappointment, Happiness,
Served on the same tray

Either way,

Riding on the rails,
Traveling towards the... light

Can be,

Fresh and Stale,

Day, then quickly... night

It's all abo
ut the state of mind.

Palos Verde, CA

Friday, July 31, 2009

Life Guard

I'm watching.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Takin' the High Road

The Resolution = Do The Right Thing

Sometimes in life
You gotta do things ya don't
Really wanna do

Sometimes in life
Ya gotta hear things ya don't
Really wanna hear

Sometimes in life
Ya gotta see things ya don't
Really wanna see

And even if you can't control
Whether they sing low or high notes

You can control
The way you act
The things you say
The walk you way.

Do the Right Thing
Take the high road

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Climbing to the Top


In elementary school
I saw this picture
It looked kinda cool
Two faces and a vase

Which did I want to see?
The vase or the face?
Two living people that breathe
Or a piece of lifeless pottery?

July 29th
After work
I learned
That people have two sides

This Wednesday
Sitting here
I learned
That I'm the only one who is Really down to Ride

The loud speaker sayS,
"kkkshhhhh. this is your captain speaking,
the crew and i have a little new flash, c
we're the ones who run this ship,
and you're just a passenger."?

This life lesson is painful,

With every negative seed that is planted,
There is a positive seed
Of equal and usually greater value
Right Along Side.

I am a champion,
and I will crush you,
if you're a fraud.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Bearing it All

Statue of David - By: Michelangelo

Your online life is an int-resting one
Standing up tall and bearing it all

Some folks will get it
And some won't get none
But I guarantee
They'll all hear the call

If you're a statue drawing their eyes
Using predictability 'n' elements of surprise

Be very careful
There's no turning back
Once they've got your number
And they know where you're at

David might say something like this
"They'll kick you, they'll hurt you, then send you a kiss"

So remember that game that you're playing
And parts that you're choosing to share
Life can be a scary affair
When you've lost your underwear

Tuesday, July 21, 2009


Have you ever been disappointed by someone?

I'm sitting in the room with somebody that I am very sadly, oooh wooes me, disappointed with.

I don't like the feeling. It makes me want to run away.

Ya know... be around people who understand how they effect others...

ya know... someonewhoisconsiderateofothersanddoesn'thavetheirheadsofaruptheirarsethatthey

Monday, July 20, 2009

The Stranger

I had a conversation with a man today in Beverly Hills.

He said, "Rusty... make sure you laugh a lot"

He also talked about God, Love, & Financial Stability.

Again, I met another stranger on my journey that helped me re-focus and remember what my life is about.

Life is a mysterious and wonderful thing. =)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Trapped in Limbo

I feel like I'm trapped in limbo.
A feeling that's complex and simple

Do you see the man that's trying to climb?
Reaching for help but getting denied

I'm still standing at the edge of a cliff
With tied up wings unable to fly
Knowing if I jump too soon,
I will surely die

So I'm forced to wait and watch,
The less worthy pass me by.

Maybe I'll never fulfill my soul
Like a small child trapped in the water hole

Will I lose all that I've built?
While I'm wobbling on these stilts?


If none of this matters in the end,
Why does it keep me awake, God send?

Wednesday, June 10, 2009


yo. what up brutha?

what are you doing?

i'm working on how to learn to use this program a little better. just learning. why do you ask?

well because i'm interested.

good, what are you doing?

i'm writing a blog... yeah?

yeah yeah, bloggy bloggy. rusty's writing a blog. blooooggy.

"This was typed by a person in the room with a laptop. It's a part of a conversation between Rusty J and his friend Richard."

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Creative Expression

Painting by: Mary Susan Simmons

What is Creative Expression?

Hm... good question. lol

I think that "Where" Creative Expression comes from should be addressed first... in order to answer that question. (the way I would answer it)

- I think that maybe, thoughts come from the interaction between our outside surroundings and our mind.

In my case, my senses (sound, sight, etc...) detect things around me. Then a message is sent to my brain. Next, I think, the left and right sides of my brain interpret the information that my senses are sending.

Again, in my case, the emotional side usually has a stronger response/reaction.
So... I react emotionally.

Since I'm a songwriter, those emotional feelings and thoughts tend to turn into songs. But they don't ONLY turn into songs. They also turn/manifest themselves into other forms of Creative Expression. Sometimes I just sit down and draw... or doodle. Other times, I write a blog. When I don't wanna do that, I open up Adobe Photoshop and I redesign my MySpace page.... or update my Status on my facebook page.
MY... Creative Expression. Fun ay?

It's almost like "Life Is a Tv Show".
Song Title - Copyright 2009.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Do you remember this movie!?!?!

If not... you gotta see it.

Have you ever heard the sayings:

"Sweet wouldn't be sweet without sour"

"There wouldn't be ups without the downs"

"Hot and Cold"

"East and West"

The reason why I love this movie is because the two main characters are so ironic. They are children who fall in love like adults who experience Beautiful Heart Break.

p.s. taylor, don't even think about using that as a song title! I already did!!! =P

Kinda like opposites. =) (=

Also, they both go on the Hero's Journey.

Don't know what the Hero's Journey is? Google it.

Friday, June 5, 2009


To ME,

this pic is soooooo thought provoking.

There are so many things that I'm reaching for. Love, Success, Knowledge, Spiritual Fulfillment, Friendship, Family.


A couple days ago the President of America... my president... spoke to 1 Billion Muslims. During his speech he quoted the Bible, Qu'ran, and the Torah. He talked about peace between the Western and Eastern Hemispheres.

He is reaching for peace.

Here's a little side note: His speech will help improve Muslim perceptions and opinions of Americans and the USA.

Times are changing.

How do you feel about it?

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Easy Like Sunday Morning

I'm sitting on a red suede couch right now. It's very flashy, unlike the couch that I used to fall asleep on after school.

Here's a little trivia that only my high school friends know:

One of the houses that I grew up in was surrounded by a cow pasture. lol Literally! lol My brother and I used to always talk about going cow tippin' but we never did... too scared that my mom would catch us and we'd be grounded.

I'm home sick. Can ya tell?

Don't get me wrong. I am really enjoying myself in California. It's a very fast paced, fashionable, musically inclined, fun and cool place to live. It's a different lifestyle than where I grew up though. So it doesn't feel very familiar. Ya know?

Wanna know what I really want?

I want to have a big southern house in the middle of nowhere. I'm talkin' about a place where you don't hear cars all the time. A place where you're surrounded by the sound of crickets at night.

I wanna swing on the porch and feel the breeze while I lazily gaze around and enjoy the serenity of the moment. Maybe I'll even learn how to play the harmonica. My mom told me that my grandfather was a heck of a hamonica player. Maybe I'll be naturally good at it....

Did you know that I used to live in Nashville?

Well I did. And I loved it. I had to move to California for music... but I really want to go back.

There was a back road that I always used to drive on while the sun was setting. For about a mile stretch, there were very big hills that used to look beautiful when the sun was setting. I miss that.

It's not just the sunsets and the crickets that I miss... it's the lifestyle. The calm and easy going lifestyle.

It's easy like sunday morning



i'm thinking.

have i been in love?


am i in love now?

=( no

do i wanna to be?

haha who doesn't want to be in love? i sure do.

are you looking?

my eyes are wide open.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

The Truth

Lets talk about the truth.

What is the truth?

Idk you tell me.

truth is whats real.


yeah. truth is, life is not about money, its not about clothes, its not about looking pretty. it ain't about none of that bullcrap that we surround ourselves in.

so what is the truth then?

uh... idk man.

any guesses?

i mean everybody has theirn own views. i have my views on what life is about, and what i feel is right. its probably not what everybody else feels like. so my views of what life is about will lead to who i am and what i will do in life. and shape you too. you know what i mean? right? right? what else are you living for.

what do you mean by that.

i mean, you're doing what you feel is the right thing to do. thats how people live right? you do what you feel is right you throughout life. me? i feel like life is about giving back. what are you living for?

hm... i dont know what i'm searching for. its weird, and hard to explain. but i have this feeling inside of me that tells me "don't you dare quit it!." (they both laugh) so, that kind of acts like a propreller on a boat that is floating downstream anyway! ya know? what is the boat heading towards? well right now its music, then something after that. i can't say exactly what the destinations are going to be like, but i can say one thing for sure... "I am enjoying the ride."

"This conversation was documented by a typist as it happened and received NO revisions before posting to the internet"