Trapped in Limbo

I feel like I'm trapped in limbo.
A feeling that's complex and simple

Do you see the man that's trying to climb?
Reaching for help but getting denied

I'm still standing at the edge of a cliff
With tied up wings unable to fly
Knowing if I jump too soon,
I will surely die

So I'm forced to wait and watch,
The less worthy pass me by.

Maybe I'll never fulfill my soul
Like a small child trapped in the water hole

Will I lose all that I've built?
While I'm wobbling on these stilts?

&

If none of this matters in the end,
Why does it keep me awake, God send?

hey.



yo. what up brutha?



what are you doing?



i'm working on how to learn to use this program a little better. just learning. why do you ask?



well because i'm interested.


good, what are you doing?


i'm writing a blog... yeah?


yeah yeah, bloggy bloggy. rusty's writing a blog. blooooggy.

"This was typed by a person in the room with a laptop. It's a part of a conversation between Rusty J and his friend Richard."

Creative Expression

Painting by: Mary Susan Simmons

What is Creative Expression?

Hm... good question. lol

I think that "Where" Creative Expression comes from should be addressed first... in order to answer that question. (the way I would answer it)

- I think that maybe, thoughts come from the interaction between our outside surroundings and our mind.

In my case, my senses (sound, sight, etc...) detect things around me. Then a message is sent to my brain. Next, I think, the left and right sides of my brain interpret the information that my senses are sending.

Again, in my case, the emotional side usually has a stronger response/reaction.
So... I react emotionally.

Since I'm a songwriter, those emotional feelings and thoughts tend to turn into songs. But they don't ONLY turn into songs. They also turn/manifest themselves into other forms of Creative Expression. Sometimes I just sit down and draw... or doodle. Other times, I write a blog. When I don't wanna do that, I open up Adobe Photoshop and I redesign my MySpace page.... or update my Status on my facebook page.

MY... Creative Expression. Fun ay?


It's almost like "Life Is a Tv Show".
Song Title - Copyright 2009.

Do you remember this movie!?!?!

If not... you gotta see it.



Have you ever heard the sayings:

"Sweet wouldn't be sweet without sour"

"There wouldn't be ups without the downs"

"Hot and Cold"

"East and West"

The reason why I love this movie is because the two main characters are so ironic. They are children who fall in love like adults who experience Beautiful Heart Break.

p.s. taylor, don't even think about using that as a song title! I already did!!! =P

Kinda like opposites. =) (=

Also, they both go on the Hero's Journey.

Don't know what the Hero's Journey is? Google it.

Reaching

To ME,

this pic is soooooo thought provoking.


There are so many things that I'm reaching for. Love, Success, Knowledge, Spiritual Fulfillment, Friendship, Family.

Happiness.



A couple days ago the President of America... my president... spoke to 1 Billion Muslims. During his speech he quoted the Bible, Qu'ran, and the Torah. He talked about peace between the Western and Eastern Hemispheres.

He is reaching for peace.



Here's a little side note: His speech will help improve Muslim perceptions and opinions of Americans and the USA.

Times are changing.

How do you feel about it?

Easy Like Sunday Morning

I'm sitting on a red suede couch right now. It's very flashy, unlike the couch that I used to fall asleep on after school.

Here's a little trivia that only my high school friends know:

One of the houses that I grew up in was surrounded by a cow pasture. lol Literally! lol My brother and I used to always talk about going cow tippin' but we never did... too scared that my mom would catch us and we'd be grounded.


I'm home sick. Can ya tell?

Don't get me wrong. I am really enjoying myself in California. It's a very fast paced, fashionable, musically inclined, fun and cool place to live. It's a different lifestyle than where I grew up though. So it doesn't feel very familiar. Ya know?


Wanna know what I really want?

I want to have a big southern house in the middle of nowhere. I'm talkin' about a place where you don't hear cars all the time. A place where you're surrounded by the sound of crickets at night.

I wanna swing on the porch and feel the breeze while I lazily gaze around and enjoy the serenity of the moment. Maybe I'll even learn how to play the harmonica. My mom told me that my grandfather was a heck of a hamonica player. Maybe I'll be naturally good at it....


Did you know that I used to live in Nashville?

Well I did. And I loved it. I had to move to California for music... but I really want to go back.

There was a back road that I always used to drive on while the sun was setting. For about a mile stretch, there were very big hills that used to look beautiful when the sun was setting. I miss that.

It's not just the sunsets and the crickets that I miss... it's the lifestyle. The calm and easy going lifestyle.


It's easy like sunday morning

LOVE

hmm......

i'm thinking.




have i been in love?

yup.



am i in love now?

=( no



do i wanna to be?

haha who doesn't want to be in love? i sure do.



are you looking?

my eyes are wide open.